I've had 24 hours of contractions
no more than three minutes apart
but things are going slowly.
And after feeling lost and scared in the birthing centre
I've finally found the courage
to ask to be moved to the local hospital.
I had so wanted to have positive
experiences at the birthing centre.
I had liked the small, community feel of
it when I had looked round when I was pregnant.
I wanted my husband to be able to stay
overnight with us on the first night.
I wanted visitors to come and go without
visiting hours.
I wanted to have my baby in the same
hospital where my brother had been born
and where I had spent the first two weeks
of my life.
But the most positive thing that happened
to me at the birthing centre
was making the decision to leave.
I was taking control again.
I was trusting my instincts.
I didn't feel safe.
I didn't feel confident or in control of
myself.
I didn't want my baby born here.
The call was made.
The hospital had a room ready for me.
I had even put in the request
that an anaesthetist be ready as
soon as possible
to administer an epidural.
I had reached my pain limit,
I couldn't stand any more.
The ambulance was on the way.
The car was packed for my husband to drive
to the hospital in the next town.
And we waited for the relief midwife to
come and take over at the birthing unit
while my midwife travelled with me in the
ambulance.
And by the time the ambulance arrived,
my contractions had all but stopped.
I walked myself into the ambulance.
I enjoyed my flashy light ride to the
hospital.
It felt like I was in a rally car.
I only puffed on the gas and air a couple
of time in the whole journey.
And as we pulled up at the hospital,
the midwife confessed that I had made the
right decision.
With my contractions stopping like that,
she would have been forced to transfer me
anyway.
They wheeled me into a sparkly new labour
room
with all the latest mod-cons
and an en-suite bathroom.
And I promptly used said en-suite
to produce the much wanted urine sample.
I think it was a mixture of the fact my
contractions had all but stopped
and the fact that I suddenly felt relaxed
and in control again.
We had arrived at the hospital as the
shift changed over,
so we waited about half an hour before we
were introduced to our new midwife.
We didn't really mind,
my contractions had started back up again
but were quite spaced out and not lasting
very long,
and while they were still really painful,
I had the gas and air,
and more than anything,
I'd regained my composure.
I've just read every chapter so far of your birth story. I can't believe that the midwife actually spoke and treated you like that. Well done for making that decision. But you've kept me in suspense. Can't wait for the next chapter. x
ReplyDeleteI like the chapter by chapter approach!
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm so glad you took control. Birth should be our experience, and yet we often feel that we shouldn't cause trouble. Good for you :)
Oh I am so glad the transfer went smoothly and with not too many contractions so you could regain yourself and prepare yourself for the next bit.
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